Powerful things.
Posted on June 18, 2010 with 0 comments
There is an astronomical difference between the beginning of a relationship and the end of one. I never fathomed that one person could change so much about my life. I never knew that abruptly having that person leave my life would cause more pain than struggling with that person, either. Even after two months, I'm still feeling the after-effects, though maybe to a lesser extent. Things are getting better, for the most part. I've found that my healing process is comparable to falling down on roller skates and getting huge bruises and cuts. It's sort of as though you fell once, really hard, (the break-up) and the wound was numb for awhile. Then, you fell again, and the wound started bleeding profusely, for a couple of days. Then you decided to stay off of skates for a period of time, in order to allow yourself to heal. But THEN you got back on the roller skates and ran into a tree, (I actually did that, but I was trying to make that tree stand for a bump in the healing process, like stumbling upon an old picture or an old gift) and the wound suddenly bursts open, spurting blood all over the place. Right now, mine is scabbing over, and hopefully I'll be able to let it heal completely. Of course, there are times when it twinges quite a bit, but I know that if I keep breathing and dealing, it will stop hurting. Or maybe it won't ever completely stop hurting, but I know for a fact that the pain will diminish little by little. Time will tell, of course, and I've found great solace in certain music and literature. (And there are a few individuals I owe a lot to, as well.) I'm going to keep going, and I'm going to utilize what tools I have available to me to make this summer count, no matter how much I may dislike the lack of school. I don't agree that time heals all wounds, but I do believe that the combination of music (thank you Kristina) and real, true friends have a lot more power than a ticking clock ever will.